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Like a nervous heart that is crazy beating.
The little things you do to me are taking me over.
I wanna show you everything inside of me,
Like a nervous heart that is crazy beating.
My feet are stuck here against the pavement.
I wanna break free.
I wanna make it closer to your eyes.
Get your attention before you pass me by.
Back up, back up,
Take another chance.
Don't you mess up, mess up.
I don't wanna lose you.
Wake up, wake up.
This ain't just a thing that you,
Give up, give up.
Don't just say that I'd be better off.
Better off sitting by myself wondering,
If I'm better off, better off without you boy.
And every time you notice me,
By holding me closely and saying sweet things,
I don't believe that it could be,
You speakin' your mind and saying the real thing.
My feet have broke free and I'm leaving.
I'm not gonna stand here feeling lonely but I don't regret it,
And I don't think it was just a waste of time.
The little things you do to me are taking me over.
I wanna show you everything inside of me,
Like a nervous heart that is crazy beating.
My feet are stuck here against the pavement.
I wanna break free.
I wanna make it closer to your eyes.
Get your attention before you pass me by.
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i can't be who you are
time out if everyone's worth pleasing
Probably the worst girl you've ever heard of,
I am Sherline.
I hold it true, whatever befall,
I feel it, when I sorrow most,
Its better to have loved and lost
Than never to have loved at all.
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codings: inksplash
inspirations: minty-peach
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Saturday, November 07, 2009 @4:24 AM
Tonight I shall make a confession.
I took quite some time to type all what I've to say in this post. Plus a whole lot of courage to trash out the things that I've been thinking for these days. So if you managed to read through this journal entry, then thank you.
1. Despite not knowing if you'll read this, I still wanna type it down. I'm sorry that I wasn't a good friend from the start. Its always me screwing up our happy times and let us end up in such a bad state. Whenever we quarrel, I would always put the blame on you, which is not right of me. And yet, I still cry and tell you how much you've hurt me. But after so long, I begin to see things from another point of view. I see things in a more clearer view, that its my selfishness which brought us to the state we're in now. I can never treat you as a best friend, even though we're more than just good friends. Because I seriously think having a best friend relationship is too much for me to take. I will just be more selfish than ever? And every time you're so good with someone new, I tend to get jealous and got this mindset that you're gonna leave me for someone new. I fear losing someone important like you. Not because you're my only good friend, but because you're someone who I can always rely on when I'm down. Being with you just makes me happy, we do what others don't, laugh like some crazy girls and eat a whole lot of food together. The things that we've done together, I've never forget. I used to think of the bad times and the quarrels we had, whenever I'm angry with you. But not now anymore, because those happy memories kept running through my mind and made me realised that everything I saw when I was angry, was absolutely wrong. I didn't think enough to make a judgement. And as much as it seems stupid, I actually laugh whenever I thought of those silly things that we've done together. You know, I really wanted so much to get back to you on the 2nd day after we quarrelled, but because of what someone said to me the previous night.... I made a terrible mistake and I regretted a lot. I guess being regretful won't help much and I just have to learn how to cherish you the hard way. Every time I quarrelled with you, I always learn to look at things at a different angle after a long time. I'm sorry for venting my anger on you, and yet you tolerate it over and over again. Right now, although we aren't really friends anymore, I guess this might be better. At least I won't be hurting you anymore and we might feel its better this way. Thank you for being my friend and I'll always remember you're the Peanut and I'm the Pea. I just feel that nobody can replace the memories we shared, because they're not you nor me. : )
2. Serene(Rui Ling), I'm so sorry that I blame you for the coming in between me and my friend. I truly am sorry for being such a bitch and not understanding the situation. I hope you'll forgive me and be friends with me again. Cause when I first knew you, you were really kind and cute..... Just that I'm stupid enough to make you stay away from me. Please please pretty please come lets be friends okay???? :(
3. I miss you, Kai Chin. And if you're reading this, I hope to let you know that I'm sorry for the things I've said and done the last time. I really enjoyed being around with you cause you're a really funny friend. With you around, there will always be laughter. But due to me being stupid and childish , we aren't really close anymore. I really hope that we can be friends again! I really really do!!!!! I remembered and treasured those fun times we had during Year 1. :(
4. Hi someone, I really am very angry at how you treated me. My snail friend tried to convince me that you're treating me in a very harsh way because you've had enough of how the others are doing it to you. I know its my fault but I don't think I deserved being vent on angry by you. Because you've experienced something bad outside, doesn't mean you can vent it on others. Its not just you who will get problems here and there, everyone does. And I finally had a taste of Karma because I used to vent my anger on someone else. I'm not trying to lecture you nor trying to offend you over here. But please, reflect on yourself and grow up. Just like what you said to me, I gotta reflect on myself and so do you. As for the grow up part, my snail friend always says that we're big kids who should grow up now. Mentally not physically. If you've read this and hated me for saying all these shit, I guess I've got nothing to say. In the end, I'm not really angry with you anymore cause well...............like what my snail friend said, we are still friends.
5. Thank you B. Thank you so much for being such a bitch and destroy my fucking secondary 2 life. Haha thanks to you, I've seen the ugly side of Humans!!! And I won't deny that I'm still hating you and all your fucking lies. Oh ya thanks to those who bullied me too, I think you're just being childish enough. All you motherfuckers made me realised a lot of ugly truths and made me grow up!!!!!!!!! Seriously thanks a lot and beware of Karma. I don't have to say much about what you guys did because we all know in our little hearts. This is my first and last time talking about this issue over here and I shan't bring it up again. Anyway I didn't know I had the courage to bitch about you guys here. WOOHOO ^^V
6. I love my sisters, brother, mum, dad, grandpa and uncle!!!!!!!! They're always here for me at the lowest point of my life. As I grow older, I begin to understand and be appreciate for what they've done. Heehee I love to play with my mum, I think she's damn cute but childish. :B I hope I'll learn to treasure them before I regret!
7. Thanks to all those friends who've been with me till now!!!!! Jialin, Jiaxin, Sinhui, Sandy, Serene Lee, Seejia, Ling Yeow, Bernard, Vivien and Huihui!!! I really appreciate all the things you all have said and done. Without you guys, I won't be able to smile again cause you guys really cheered me up. I LOVE YOU ALL!!!!!! (L)
With this, I end my post. This might probably be the longest post I've ever typed. Be it good or bad, I've already moved on. I bet all of you moved on too. Hope everyone is happy with their life now.
God bless.
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